Ever heard the saying... or maybe it's in a song -- The more I learn, the less I know. -- or maybe I just butchered a famous quote, who knows? Anyways, how true is this statement?! It is amazing how much one can learn from just opening their eyes... trying something new... or even just by listening.
You might be wondering, what in the world is she talking about? So I will tell you.
I left my sweet, little college town for a big, unexplored [at least by me] city to be a part of something new. I left what I knew to do something I knew I could do. The hardest part of it all is proving to myself that I can do it, even after the shimmer wears off. I knew all the answers, no problem when it came to a question from a stranger... now, I AM that stranger.
It is so amazing to see what Florida and more specifically West Palm Beach has to offer this g.r.i.t.s. (girl raised in the south). I take one day at a time and just soak it all in and love comparing the old with the new. Don't get me wrong, I do miss the old sometimes but that doesn't mean I can't visit...
Everyday I see something new in WPB, I learn a new story about something (or someone) and I just wait for the chance to share it with friends or family that will eventually come to visit. But when I do learn that new piece of awesomeness, I can't help but think about the other pieces I don't know about. Which it's fine not to know everything but it leads me to wonder if I will ever have the same feelings about who I am as when I left Clemson...
When I went back to SC for Whitney's wedding and to spend Christmas with my family, I felt so rushed to do everything imaginable. So many people and places I wanted to go back and see, I just finally had to stop and say RELAX! I have the memories and unless I run myself ragged, I won't be able to ENJOY anything about this trip. By the end of the trip, I had so many regrets that I didn't leave my grandparent's house at all, everyone had to come there if they wanted to see me, end of story. Jess even made the trip to meet my family and prove that she did actually exist after all these years... She got lost coming over so Papaw went to meet her. Even though she hated being lost and no clue where she was, I knew exactly where she was. But she reminded me of how I used to be to how I am now and realizing that it's okay to be lost b/c eventually you find your way.
That's all we all are trying to do anyways, is find our way. But before we can lead we must follow the ones who haven't always known all the answers. HOW AWESOME? (frustrating, yes) BUT AWESOME!
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LIFE UPDATE: WORK WORK WORK! I haven't had much free time but Noodle is in Florida and enjoying every minute we spend together. He hasn't been to the beach yet b/c he didn't do so well in Charleston with it so we stick to what he likes for now :-) I actually get a weekend off coming up (not Sunday though) so it will be nice to actually get to see some sights... oh wait, I have to go in for a meeting on Friday, okay so I have Saturday off! Irregardless of all the hours I spend working, I still have a smile on my face and have no regrets about moving. Sure it could be a lot easier on me right now had I not moved but I wouldn't be happy. And that is what is important to me, being happy.
Still waiting to hear someone else would like to come for a visit (and mean it). So far Catherine, Alex, and Gregory gotten to see this face on my turf... who's next?!
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